advertising photography in zlin

*****WARNING!*****
this journal is only about my frustrating bitching around!
so dont expect much!

- in case u clicked here and dont want to read go watch my favorite series intro: click here for teh youtube awesomeness

now back to my story:

well, as i am pretty old now (meaning: i should already have a solid career at this age) im still struggling with my university studies - recently overcoming yet another being-thrown-out-of-school-in-the-last-year situation - studies i just want to finish because of the huge amounts of time and money i have already invested into, i have come to the conclusion that it is fckn* high time to give my life a proper course:

my dream is to become a pro COMMERCIAL/FASHION PHOTOGRAPHER

being the chicken i am (and for the lack of useful contacts), i thought of enrolling into another (!) uni study: the very renowned advertising photography in zlin .
as i really need to work and earn money, i opted for the part-time mode of study and here came the ultimate problem:
one of the requirements is at least 3 yrs work experience in this field
- wtf!!!srsly if i was an advertising photographer already for 3 fckn* yrs i wouldnt need the fckn* school anymore in the first place!!!* - and in case ur slow today: i dont have the praxis and really doubt i can ever get it unless i study for it on a uni...a very sad LOL


im just so pissed right now! everything just sux at this moment! i have no fckn* contacts to at least introduce me into this business, my friends still dont recognize me even as an AMATEUR photographer (yes they dont even believe its a hobby of mine - u should see the surprise in their faces when i mention i want to pursue this as a career!!), and i have no fckn* money to buy equipment that could help me evolve!!
its so frustrating!!!

and as a matter of fact its ALL JUST MY FAULT!
im such a fckn* chicken!! i should be out there brandishing with my stunningly amazing portfolio on the right places and just be awesome. instead im stuck here in front of my pc, wining about how lame i am. pathetic!
somebody should just kick me hard in the ass*...

if u read this far you are my hero!!!seriously!!
u get a cookie and a question to answer:
how do i become a pro when im so fckn* scared that i dont have the "package" for it???

ill appreciate all constructive thoughts and advises, in case u have any about my sorry excuse of a life, just go ahead and write a comment/message! thanx!


ps: in case uve ever wondered: yes, i thought life would just give me cookies without any hard trying!


*/note: sorry, im watching too much dexter - debs languages really easy to pick up - and hard to get rid of